7w0d - Weekly update and Symptoms

How far along? 
7 Weeks!

How big is the peanut? 
"Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry."

Total weight gain/loss? 
I didn't weigh myself today but as of yesterday only 0.2 lbs - which is shocking since I've been eating everything in site!

Maternity clothes? 
Not yet, but thinking about it!

Sleep?
I sleep like a rock.

Best moment this week? 
Seeing Baby Schloss's heartbeat at 6w5d!!!!!   This was just so amazing.  Mike and I are so relieved!

Food cravings? 
No real cravings but my pre pregnancy diet strictness is completely out the door.

Food aversions? 
Non really but when Mike was browning turkey meat earlier this week for tacos it smelled gross.  Of course I still ate the finished product.  lol

Gender? 
Not yet!   Though they have a new blood test that can detect it as early as 10 weeks!

Milestones? 
What happened LAST week: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones.

What's happening this week:
Your baby’s hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny baby fingers and toes you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller.

Bump?
My pants are all very snug.  My lower belly is definitely firmer and bumpier.

Symptoms:
Night: Cramps after peeing.  Woke up from  a sex dream to an orgasm!  Just like Victor's pregnancy.
Morning: Constipation.
Afternoon / Evening:  Nothing.  No TSB.

6w6d - Symptoms

Symptoms:

Night: Two vivid dreams that were both awful (one, my basement was haunted with the ghost of a child; two, I was bleeding red blood, went to the OB and they were putting bloody chum all over my belly to help me absorb the iron from it or something bizarre and they wouldn't give me an ultrasound so I didn't know if I was miscarrying or not).

Morning: Veiny.  No TSB.  Pants aren't fitting, had to break out the bigger sizes.  Felt "off" early hours of work.  Starving!!!!   Just ate my lunch and still starving!

6w5d - Ultrasound and Symptoms

God is good!  God is AWESOME!   Praise Jesus!  We have a heartbeat!   122bm!  Baby Schloss measured 6w3d, exactly 7 days more than 7 days ago!   Thank you everyone so so so so so much for your thoughts and prayers!     We are just so happy words can't explain.

Heartbeat visualized!  122 BPM!

Side view.

I think this is his/her spine.  Measuring 6w3d.

Another measurement:  6w3d.

Baby!!!

Symptoms:

Night:  Starving, had to eat a bar.   One vivid dream.

Morning:  TSB, veiny.  On my feet most of the morning, so a lot of pulling mid morning.

Afternoon:  Thirst.   A tiny bit woozy and bleh feeling after work.

Evening:  Cramps when laying.   Slight TSB (hard to get).

6w4d - Symptoms

If you haven't noticed by now I am a nervous wreck.   Most of my symptoms have vanished.  I am a wreck.  I'm not fun to be around.  I am completely and utterly consumed with fear.  Fear that tomorrow will bring the same news as last May and I'll have to endure a miscarriage all over again.  Please pray for us.  Please pray they see a strong heartbeat tomorrow.  Please pray I find peace if they don't.

Symptoms:

All day:  Peeing a lot

Night:  No vivid dreams.  No cramping after peeing like usual.  Insomnia.

Morning:  Nothing other than veiny.  Slight TSB.   Constipation that I had for weeks is gone (not good, maybe my progesterone dropped?....which wouldn't be good).

Mid morning:  Nothing.   Brief headache (maybe 2 minutes).

Noon:  Nothing.  Headache back (praying it's not a bad shift in hormones :( )

Afternoon:  Dry eyes?   Maaaaaaybe some right side uterine pulling.  I feel like I'm just grasping at straws here now.   Tired on my way to acupuncture.  Slept during acupuncture.

Evening:  After acupuncture I had symptoms!  Slight nausea but I'll take it.  Slight cramps.  Aversion to the chicken.   I think increased sense of smell?   TSB.

6w3d - Symptoms

Only two more days until our ultrasound to confirm the heartbeat!  I am nervous/excited/anxious!!

Symptoms:

All day:  Peeing a lot

Night:  Super vivid dreams (1 scary, 1 pregnancy dream), a few cramps after peeing

Morning:  Nothing other than TSB

Mid morning:  Nothing

Afternoon:  Nothing

Evening:  Maaaaaybe like one uterine pull during a walk.  Other than that.... NOTHING other than veiny.  TSB.

6w2d - Symptoms

Three days until our next ultrasound!

Symptoms
Night:  Vivid dreams (one was sex related, non baby), small cramps after peeing, peeing more
Morning:  Nothing
Afternoon:  Bloated/slightly crampy after nap
Evening:  Veiny, TSB

6w1d - Symptoms

Symptoms:
Night:  Vivid dreams (non sex, non baby)
Morning:  Nothing
Mid morning:  Lots of pulling during yard work
Afternoon:  Super bloated after taking a nap
Evening:  TSB, veiny

6w0d - Veggie comparison, symptoms, and ultrasound pic obsession

My baby is the size of a lentil today!

And this is what she looks like (we hope!):

So my second ultrasound is 5 days away so of course to pass the time I am obsessing over my last sonogram's photos.  The tech said she didn't see a fetal pole, but I really think I see one.   What do you think?   I know, I'm obsessed and weird but it's all I have to pass the time!

5w5d - measuring 5w3d.... do you see a fetal pole?

Symptoms:
Middle of the night:  1 vivid dream (non sex, non baby), cramps after peeing
Morning:  Nothing other than TSB.
Mid morning:  Super duper bloated, small cramps.
Lunch:  Still bloated but doesn't feel as bad.   Dull cramps (also not as bad).
Afternoon:   Less bloated.  No cramps.   Tired.
Evening:  TSB

5w6d - Symptoms

Still can't believe this is happening.   I pray we see a heartbeat soon.  Our next ultrasound is next Wednesday (6 days away!) at 6w5d.   I measured 5w3d yesterday so we may measure 6w3d next week.  I just pray we see a heartbeat.   God is indeed good.  If you're a praying person, we are desperate for your prayers to be lifted up to Him to see this baby into our arms.   <3

Symptoms:
Middle of the night:  Maybe a tiny cramp or two after I peed.  No vivid dreams.
Morning:  Fuller/achy boobs.  Only ached for about 20 minutes this morning but I'll take it!
Mid morning:  Maaaaaaybe I smell things more?   Left boob twinges.
Noon:  Pulling while walking.  Yellow CM.  Briefly tired after lunch - keyword: briefly.
Afternoon:  Nothing.
Evening:  Cramps, tired, TSB.

5w5d - Ultrasound!! & Beta #5!!!!!

The ultrasound is in 1 hour and 10 minutes (and beta #5)!  I think I might pass out from nerves.  I'll update this as soon as I can!!

UPDATE:  Sonogram went well.  Gestational sac = check!  Yolk sac = check!  HB = too early to see!!!  I am 5w5d as of this afternoon and the sac was measuring 5w3d.  I'm okay with that since FET's are slow to implant usually.   I neeeeeeeeeeeeeed to see that HB before I can celebrate.  I just need it.  After last May's miscarriage I am scarred.  I need to see that flicker!  Anyways, we don't know what's next.  Cleveland Clinic will still want to do their first u/s which I'm guessing they'll want to do 8/3.   I wonder if OBGYN Associates will want another one too?  Have I mentioned I'm not telling Cleveland Clinic that I'm already getting ultrasounds at my OB?  I want as many as possible so why tell them?  Anyways, without further adoo, here is our little bean (who you can't actually see, he/she isn't the spherical thing)....

Beta #5: 

Praise the Lord for He is GOOOOOOOD!!!!!!! Thank YOU everyone, from the bottom of my heart that is reading this. Your thoughts and prayers mean the world to us!

5867!!

All betas graphed together.... 

More data.....

Symptoms:

Middle of the night: vivid dreams (still not sex or baby related....come on sex dreams, you're all I had when I was pregnant with Victor), cramps after peeing
Morning:  TSB, uterine pulls when getting of ultrasound table
Afternoon:  Sliiiiiiiiiiiiightly nauseated, and kinda tired

5w4d - Speculated betas & Symptoms

Less than 24 hours until our first sonogram!  I am so flipping nervous!

Goal betas for tomorrow (in yellow).....Hoping for any of the top 3 for my sanity's sake....

Tho there is this..... I suppose I should take any of them really..... I just want it to be strong so I can rest and just be happy!   Infertility steals the chance of happiness away from early pregnancies because us interfiles are so deathly terrified of losing the baby (again).

Though when I put 3850 into the HCG doubling chart (on the same damn page as that Normal HCG Doubling Times thing above) it says that the 2 day increase is 72 hours and says "lower than normal".  If it's supposed to double in 72-96 hours past 1200 then why is 3850 (72 hour doubling) considered "lower than normal"?  Let's hope, nay, let's PRAY my beta is so strong tomorrow this is a moot point and we don't have to debate this stuff!!

Symptoms: 
Middle of the night: vivid dreams (not sex or baby related)
Morning: Veiny.  TSB.  Drive to work had some dull cramps on the right of my ute.   My bloated stomach is mostly flat again.  :(
Mid morning:  Swear my yogurt tastes weird.  Finally some bloat - just a tiny bit but I'll take it!  Come on symptoms!
Lunch: Walked and had some pulling on the right mostly, a bit on the left.
Afternoon:  Nothing.  Then small cramps.
After work:  Uterine pulling when moving!  Yes!
Evening: Uterine pulling when moving!  TSB

5w3d - Symptoms

Only 2 more sleeps until my first ultrasound (and beta #5).   Time cannot go any slower.

Symptoms:
Middle of the night: vivid scary dreams, not veiny
Morning: nothing
Mid morning: dull cramps
Afternoon: headache while taking a lunch walk.  other than that, nothing :(, veins are completely gone, absolutely freezing
Evening:  Totally veiny in the shower - I think it's heat related... when I'm cold they all but vanish.  Started feeling "weird" in the evening (tiny cramps and nausea).  It was after my progesterone shot tho so it could have been from that.  Absolutely no TSB even after scraping like 15 times trying to see it.

Wish I had more symptoms to reassure me things are cooking in there!

5w2d - Symptoms

Busy weekend (luckily)!   Can't wait for Wednesday to get here for our first ultrasound!

Symptoms:
Yesterday and today were similar.
Morning:  woke from vivid dream (non sex or baby related)
Afternoon:  nap, woke up with slight nausea
Evening:  TSB, overall pretty veiny looking

5w0d (16dp5dt) - Beta #4!!!

Praise the Lord for He is GOOOOOOOD!!!!!!! Thank YOU everyone, from the bottom of my heart that is reading this. Your thoughts and prayers mean the world to us!

1204!!

Most recent chart....

All of my betas so far....

9dp5dt = 117

12dp5dt = 260 (62 hour doubling)

14dp5dt = 503 (49 hour doubling)

16dp5dt = 1204!!!!!!! (38 hour doubling)

All of my betas graphed....

5w0d (16dp5dt) - Symptoms

Had my blood drawn for beta #4!  Now we wait!  Come on 1,000+!!!!!!!!  Saying tons and tons of prayers!

Symptoms:

Middle of the night:  Slept like a log.  Cramps after peeing.  Vivid dream (non sex or baby related).

Morning:  TSB, cramps, blood draw caused a bleeder.

Mid morning:  My yogurt tastes weird.

Lunch:  The mustard on my wrap tastes weird.  Tiny cramps.

4w6d (15dp5dt) - Symptoms

So my next beta won't be until NEXT Wednesday (7/22).  That's 1 week between beta #3 and beta #4.  I can wait 6 more days, right?    I'm tempted to go in sometime between now and then but it's not THAT far away, right?  I can do this, right?   I'm aiming for 4,500+ by then.

UPDATE:  My OB's office wants to do a sonogram next week!  I am happy to oblige them.  7/22 at 8:30, then beta #4 right after!   Now Wednesday for SURE can't get here soon enough!

UPDATE 2:  My RE emailed me and said she'd be okay with doing 1 more blood draw tomorrow and then after that only once a week.  So I'm going to do it.  So come on 1006 tomorrow!!!


Symptoms:

Middle of the night:  slept like a rock, maybe one kinda vivid dream.

Morning:  Nothing, no blood with tongue scraper, TSH blood draw barely bleed.

Mid morning:  Tiiiiiny cramps.   Thirst.

Afternoon: Nothing really.  Some pulling here and there.  Ugh.  Come on.

Evening:  Super tired during evening walk.  A full uterine pulls here and there.  TSB (tongue scraper blood), a good amount of blood after progesterone injection

14dp5dt - Beta #3!

Praise the Lord for He is GOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!

503

9dp5dt = 117

12dp5dt = 260 (62 hour doubling)

14dp5dt = 503 (49 hour doubling)

14dp5dt - Symptoms

Symptoms:

Middle of the night:  Vivid dreams (this time sex and pregnancy related!), cramps after peeing, heart racing, sensitive/sore nips

Morning: blood after using tongue scraper, bleed like a stock pig after my beta blood draw, left and right cramping in uterus, right boob pinching for like 2 seconds

Mid morning:  thirsty, left side uterine pangs

Afternoon:  thirsty, left and right side uterine pangs, bloated after lunch

Evening: Headache, slighty nausea, side pulling, a lot of blood after progesterone injection, blood when using tongue scraper

13dp5dt - HPTs

Symptoms (don't know why I'm still doing this):

Middle of the night:  Cramps after peeing.  Pretty bad actually.  And some intermittent shooting pain.

Day: On and off stabby pains on the right.

Evening:  Blood after using tongue scraper.


Tests:

FMU: Top two tests were last night (12dp5dt)..... bottom two tests were this morning (13dp5dt)...... this isn't looking good.......

Evening tests:
I don't know what to think!!

Darker than night before.

Lighter than night before.

Correct estimate.

12dp5dt - Beta #2 :(

Bad news.  Only went up to 260.   It was supposed to be 351.   It has a 62.5 hour doubling rate (normal is 48 hour doubling rate).   Our blighted ovum last May had a doubling rate of 52 hours.  So this doubling rate is worse.  I can't believe this is happening all over again.  Can't wait to miscarry.... all over again.

Repeat beta on Wednesday (14dp5dt), 47 hours after beta #2.  We need it to be 512 to be a proper 48 hour doubling rate.   (Just to give you an idea, Victor was 728 at 14dp5dt.)

Please pray for us.  :(

12dp5dt - Symptoms

Symptoms:

Middle of the night: GIANT headache I actually took 1 tylenol and put a washcloth over my forehead to fall back to sleep.  Uterine tugging when getting out of bed.  A little nauseated (could have been the headache).  Vivid dreams (tho still not sex or baby related like they were when I was pregnant with Victor).

Morning:  Nothing yet.   Right pulling feelings.  Tiny cramps while driving.

Beta #2 blood drawn at 8:50am.

Mid morning:  Right side feelings.

Afternoon:  Thirst.

Evening:  Nothing.

11dp5dt - Symptoms

Beta #2 is tomorrow!  72 hours from Beta #1.  We are shooting for anything over 351!!

POAS update: Haven't POASed since 8dp5dt!  Such self control!

Symptoms:

Middle of the night:  Insomnia.  Tiiiiiiiiiiny cramps after peeing.

Morning:  Nervous shits (sorry, TMI, but it's the truth - nervous for tomorrow's beta!)....actually, this probably isn't even a symptom.  Not veiny - kinda making me nervous.

Noon:  Headache.  Sliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight cramps.    Sliiiiiiightly bloated.  Headache gone after eating and taking off hoodie.  Think I was too hot.   Sliiiiiiiiightly nauseous?

Afternoon:  Napped.  Woke up with sliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight nausea and right side uterine pulls.   Bloated.

Early evening:  Slight (only one 'i' this time) nausea still.  Dull right sided uterine cramps.   Dull headache.  Cold feet.  Veiny chest/arms/boobs (seems to only come out in the evening and gone by morning).  Blood with tongue scraper.


Soooooooo nervous for tomorrow!

10dp5dt - Symptoms

I haven't POASed since 8dp5dt!  I should win a self control award!  I am also going to make my brother $5 richer and my uncle $5 poorer.  They took a bet about whether or not I'd cave and POAS.  Well, as of right now I have a ton of resolve to wait and see what beta #2 is!  If it's good (which I am praying for), maybe I'll pee then just to see a dark FRER!

Symptoms:

Middle of the night:  Cramps after peeing, vivid dream (about Adam Lambert being my BFF)

Morning:  Pulling right side

Noon: Nothing really

Afternoon: Bloated, nauseated (tho my son has a fever so who knows if a bug is going around, I hope my nausea is baby related!)   Napped.

Evening: Not really veiny.  No blood after tongue scraper.

9dp5dt - Beta #1

Beta #1 was 117!!   I am thrilled with that!  Just slightly below average according to betabase.info for a singleton at 14dpo (129).  Though I did read FETs have lower betas and I also read 5 day transfers have lower betas.

I also used a hcg graphing tool on babymed.com to place beta #1:

http://www.babymed.com/tools/hcg-calculator

9dp5dt - HPTs

Symptoms:

Middle of the night:  Cramps after getting up to pee.

Morning:  Right uterine pulls for about 10 seconds in the car.

Beta #1 blood drawn at 9:00am.

Lunch:  Some right side uterine pulls during my walk.

Bedtime: Blood when using tongue scraper

I've also been keeping a secret.........

I had my first beta drawn 35 minutes ago at 9am.  It won't be QUITE 9dp5dt for the result as that is 5 hours before my transfer time.  So it's not technically 9dp5dt until 2:15 today!

Needless to say, I'm a nervous wreck given my history:

Pregnancy #1: Chemical
Pregnancy #2: Victor!!!
Pregnancy #3: Blighted Ovum
Pregnancy #4: ????????????   Please God let this be baby #2!!!!!

See next post for the beta result!!!!

8dp5dt - Symptoms

Symptoms:

Morning:  Brown spotting, maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaybe a full uterine pulls here and there while getting ready for work.   No veins / no blood when using tongue scraper.

9:30:  A few right sided pinches during my stand up meeting.  Tiiiiiiiiiny cramps now that I'm sitting after the meeting.

10:45:  More brown spotting.

Noon:  Tiny cramps.   Walked, a full tugs while walking.

Afternoon:  Feel normal.

3:00:  Hungry.  Small headache.

After work:  Right boob hurt for about 5 minutes.

Evening:  Brown spotting.   Blood after tongue scraper.  Constipation gone (next morning too)....think it's from nerves for beta #1.

7dp5dt - Symptoms

Symptoms:  

Early morning: Vivid dream (non sex, in fact I cried in my dream - work related).   Constipation.  Bloat is gone.  No veiny boobs.   No cramps.   Ughhhh.   It's going to be a looooooong day if these symptoms don't start up soon.   Blood when using the tongue scraper (I pushed pretty hard tho). 

Mid morning:  Mayyyyyybe a few uterine pulls?  Definitely not feeling as much as I did in the previous days.

Afternoon:  Nothing

Driving home from work:  A few cramps

Walk after work:  Side right boob hurt for about 20 seconds.

Evening: Brown spotting, veiny chest (gone by morning)

Overall:  Not bloated at all really today like I have been the past days.  This makes me worry.   My general lack of symptoms today makes me worried.  Being alive makes me worry.

6dp5dt - Symptoms

Symptoms:

Early morning: cramps when I woke up, cramps sometimes when I move, super bloated, constipated, a few twinges here and there

Mid morning: A few tiny pinches ~9am.  Nothing really after, maybe a little bloated?  Went for a walk with a friend, crampy and bloated during the walk.

Noon/afternoon:  nothing really, a little bloat.  Starting to freak that I feel mostly normal!

Drive home from work:  pinching - finally something!   Thirst?

After work - Tiiiiiiiiny bit of brown spotting.

Evening - Cramps during dinner, I think I'm starting to get veiny boobs (weren't veiny at all on a second look)?   Definitely thirsty.

5dp5dt - Symptoms

Symptoms:

Middle of the night:  vivid dream (not sex related tho), cramps in the middle of the night

Morning: Constipated (lovely), tiny cramps to start, bigger cramps later in the morning

Walk during lunch yielded some tugging and pinching.

Afternoon:  Bloated.  Super DUPER bloated.   I seriously look 12 weeks pregnant.  lol   That only lasted an hour or so, now I'm just regular bloated.

Evening walk:  Bloated.

4dp5dt - Symptoms

Symptoms:

~7am - Woke up to a sex dream.   Maybe it's a symptom?   Maybe I'm just repressed.  Lol.  It wasn't super vivid but still hoping it's a good sign.

~ 9am - Super duper bloated.

~10am - Maybe a few pulls when moving in the uterus?    Please let this be it!

11:45am -  Thirsty?  I did take a walk this morning so I'm probably just thirsty since I haven't really had much to drink since we've been back!   Bloating mostly gone.

1:11pm - Feeling completely normal and 100% losing my mind.  I checked my past symptom lists and the only time I ever had bloating resulted in a BFN.  :(

Evening - Cramps, weird uneasy feelings in stomach, acne on chin and a little on chest

Middle of the night - Cramps, twinges, pulls

3dp5dt - Symptoms?

Today was the day I was watching for symptoms like a hawk.   Nothing.   Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaybe one little pang on the lower right side that happened a few times in the span of 10 seconds.  I should note I had weird ovarian pangs before the embryo transfer as well so who knows.   I think I had cramps (teeeeeeeeeny tiny ones) in the night between 3dp and 4dp transfer. 

2dp5dt - Mr. Moon & Symptoms

No symptoms yet.  My two BFPs (not the chemical) I had symptoms starting tomorrow.  So today is my LAST day of non-symptom watching!   Anyhoo.....there is totally a moon in one of my embryos!   I hope he/she is my lucky embryo!

1dp5dt - No Symptoms

Nothing to report symptom wise.   I've decided to do modified bed rest this transfer instead of keeping up my 15,000 steps a day routine.  So far today (and it's already 6:30pm) I've only clocked 2,300 steps.   Still walking around the house to keep the blood flowing but not doing anything crazy today and tomorrow.  I'll start to work my way back up to 15k steps a day Saturday and be fully back by Tuesday.  The implantation window is typically 7dpo through 10dpo so tomorrow (2dp5dt) through Monday (5dp5dt).  So I want to stay pretty low key through that!  If you are a praying type, please continue to pray for us!  It means the world to us!

FET #5 Frozen Embryo Transfer Day!

The day's happenings:

• 9:45 Got on the road

• 11:30 Accupuncture

• 12:45 Chugging 20oz of water and popped 1.5 valium for my 1:45 transfer / 

Stopped to get lunch for Mike.

• 1:20 Arrive at Cleveland Clinic -Threw coins in the fountain to make a wish!

• 1:25 Waiting room.  Drank another 15oz (35oz, took the other 0.5 valium to total 2 valium, barely feel like I have to pee)

• 1:50 Finally in a holding room before transfer (was suppose to be at 1:45.  REALLY have to pee.  Like my FROZEN socks?  Get it?  Frozen Embryos.  I'm also flashing the # 7 since it's our seventh transfer.   Feeling like I have to pee but not that bad.  Thank you valium!

• Seventh transfer.

• Our babies.  Embryos 12 and 13.  Thawed blasts.  Let them be our take home babies or baby!  Please God!   They said my bladder was perfect (didn't comment on my uterus, I should have asked).

• 2:40 Returned to acupuncture for post transfer treatment

Our journey so far.....