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We had many struggles spread over 4 years to have our miracle son Victor in 2012. We have been battling our infertility to give him a sibling since the summer of 2013. Background on the blog (started just days before I found out the embryo transfer for our son worked).... I decided to start a blog after realizing I have only been able to make it through my TWW's (two week waits) with the help of Google and with the openness of other women suffering from infertility sharing their own stories and giving others hope. I have time and time again found my exact symptoms on other women's blogs and felt an overwhelming sense of calmness they provided me. I thought it was time to pay it forward and hopefully provide this same thing to other women on their own journeys.

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

24w1d - Ultrasound!!

Had a sonogram in Erie.  It was quite the sonogram.  I almost passed out!!   I was laying on my back, looking up at the TV, and all of sudden started getting super hot and nauseas.   The tech sat me up and I still felt like I was going to faint.  I started dripping sweat and my hands were tingling and my extremities were hard to move.  It was scary.   They say, laying on you back while pregnant cuts off blood to something or other.  I truly think this was a little of that and a little of a panic attack.  I've been feeling anxious a lot lately (with all the cord things).  So I wouldn't be surprised if it was part panic attack.  Anyways, babies looked great....

Baby A Measurements:
Head 24w5d 
Arm 24w1d
Belly 24w3d
Thigh 24w3d
Estimated weight: 1lb 10oz

Baby B Measurements:
Head 24w3d
Arm 24w6d
Belly 24w1d
Thigh 24w4d
Estimated weight: 1lb 8oz

Baby girl throwing the peace sign!

Our baby girl.

Our baby boy.

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

24w0d - Weekly update!!


We made it!!!   The babies now have a 50% chance of surviving if born today.   Not great odds yet, but every day they are in the womb it increases.   98 days until a 38 week c-section at the latest!!!  :)

Viability chart

Babies this week:
  • Your 10.5-to-11.8-inch fetus weighs about 12.7 to 20.8 ounces, and every week baby gets closer and closer to being ready to survive (and thrive!) in the outside world.
  • Baby's see-through skin is gradually becoming more opaque.
  • And baby's got a new pink glow, thanks to the small capillaries that have recently formed.
  • Your babies’ lungs are developing “branches” of the respiratory “tree” as well as cells that produce surfactant, a substance that helps air sacs inflate easily.
  • Your babies’ taste buds are developing now.

Every 4 weeks BabyCenter has another twin diagram, look how big the twins are inside of me!!!

Monday, July 18, 2016

23w6d - MFM update

Mike and I went to Pittsburgh this past Friday to check on Baby B's (our boy) velamentous cord insertion issue.  The sono tech there, too, had the HARDEST time finding either baby's cord insertion.  After almost 30 minutes of combined cord insertion finding time, Macgee's hospital concluded that Baby B's cord is normal (not marginal, nor VCI) and that Baby's A's cord is actually marginal (attached to the side of the placenta instead of the middle, but not as bad as VCI) and that her cord is super close to my cervix (this is the bad part).   We go back to Pittsburgh on Wednesday, August 3 (about 3 weeks from the first visit) to check things out again and hopefully get a better look (though as the babies get bigger, finding cord insertions gets harder).

Needless to say, one of the sono techs was completely wrong.  VCI doesn't resolve itself.  So either the Erie sono tech was completely wrong or the Pittsburgh sono tech was completely wrong.  I mean, I'd like to side with the Pittsburgh tech since that puts Baby B in a much safer place, however, I saw with my own eyes the sonogram on the TV while the Erie sonographer was doing it.  It clearly looked like a VCI.  So who knows.  I just got to keep believing my babies will be safe in my arms one day.

The babies' stats at 23.5 weeks:

Baby A
HR 153bpm
Head 23w4d-23w6d
Belly 23w3d
Head trace 24w0d
1lb 5oz (27th % percentile)

Baby B
HR 140bpm
Head 23w1d to 24w0d
Head trace 23w6d
Belly 23w6d
1lb 7oz (42nd % percentile)

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

23w0d - Weekly update and nursery started!!

One more week until viability!!   Counting down the days!  :)   105 days to go to a 38 week csection!  Thought with the VCI found on baby boy's cord, they may want them out sooner than that!   Our high-res sono is for this Friday at 10:20 at Macgee's Women's Hospital in Pittsburgh.  We then meet with an MFM afterwards to discuss a plan.  Eager to hear how how they will monitor our babies to ensure their safety!!!

We started the twins' nursery this past weekend.  Mike painted the blue walls a shade of grey (Valspar Filtered Shade).  He also started tearing up the carpet and we were pleasantly surprised with such beautiful hardwood underneath!   We were originally going to get wall to wall replacement carpet, but now we are going to get an area rug (using the same stuff we picked out for the wall to wall).  Here's a few pics of the transition....

Walls still blue

Nana and Victor painting

Grey walls and surprise hardwood!

Also, here is how I plan to lay out the babies' room.  A few of my favorite options...


Babies this week:
  • At about 10.5 to 11.8 inches and about 12.7 to 20.8 ounces, baby's not just getting bigger, he or she's getting even cuter.  
  • Baby's forming little nipples (yeah, really!)
  • Baby's face is fully formed now-he or she just needs a little extra fat to fill it out.
  • Baby's listening to your voice and your heartbeat-and even to loud sounds like cars honking and dogs barking.
Times 2:
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Thursday, July 7, 2016

22w2d - Ice!

So I recently found out that I'm slightly anemic.  I will be upping my iron and vitamin C intake.  My friend at work pointed out that I have been chewing on ice - A LOT - lately and that is actually a sign of anemia.  I found this on the interwebz:

"Iron deficiency anemia may cause a person to crave ice. Pica is disorder in which people crave and eat non-food items or items with no nutritional value, such as dirt, paper or ice. A common symptom of iron deficiency anemia is pica, and specifically, the strong urge to eat ice."  

Haha!  At least I'm not eating dirt or paper.... yet.  ;)

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

22w0d - Weekly update!!

Holy braxton hicks.   Sitting at work today and my whole uterus feels tight.   I cannot wait to get home and lay on the couch!  lol

Babies this week:
  • During month five, the average fetus measures about 10.5 to 11.8 inches and weighs about 12.7 to 20.8 ounces.
  • Now that baby's got more developed eyes and lips, he or she's looking even more like a newborn.
  • Baby's sleeping in cycles-about 12 to 14 hours per day (hint: they're probably those times you're not feeling any kicks!).

Times two:  

The finish line is in site....

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

21w0d - Weekly update and bump pic!!

What a crazy past week we've had.  Baby B (our boy) was diagnosed with a velamentous cord insertion (VCI) defect - his cord inserts into the gestational sac and then fragile veins run down that to the placenta.  The exposed veins are super fragile.  I worry for him every second of every day now.  Today I had one tiny tiny tiny bit of spotting (red) too.  It has since past and both babies sounded great on my home doppler.

Anyways, I am livid with the lack of care provided by my OB's office post the VCI finding.  A sonographer found it on Wednesday and no one has since called me from my OB's office to talk to me about it.  A lady called me yesterday (Monday) from Magee's Women's Hospital of Pittsburgh to schedule a high resolution sonogram actually in Pittsburgh for 7/15.  Still haven't spoken with a single doctor, other than the one that confirmed the VCI in the labor and delivery last Wednesday (which wasn't my OB nor my MFM).  On the one hand, I'm mad to have so little communication about it.  On the other hand, maybe no one thinks it's a big deal to need to call me?  If that is the case, then I supposed I'm glad for not being called?

21 weeks.  Some hospitals/NICU's offer life saving services to babies born this early.  Some won't even attempt to offer help until 24 weeks.  I am not sure what my local hospital's (UPMC Hamot) cut off  it, but they ARE a level 3 NICU which they probably could handle micro-premies.  Not that I want to have my babies this early, but God forbid, especially now with the VCI, that something happens, I just pray they will attempt to save them.  I've heard of women lying and saying they are further along to actually get help.  I WILL be one of those women, though the hospital is connected to my OB's office and I bet they'd see I'm lying pretty quickly.

Babies this week:
  • At 10.5 inches and about 12.7 ounces, baby's big enough now that you've probably been feeling his or her movements.
  • As baby's digestive system preps for the outside world, he or she's manufacturing meconium-the tarry black substance you'll find in the first dirty diaper!
  • If it's a girl, she's already got a lifetime's supply of eggs in her womb-about six million of them.
  • Having a boy? His testes are still located in his abdomen but will drop in the coming weeks once the scrotum finishes developing.

Times two:

Good words of wisdom with the VCI 
issue making me worry: