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We had many struggles spread over 4 years to have our son Victor in 2012. We are now continuing our infertility journey to give him a sibling. I decided to start a blog after realizing I have only been able to make it through my TWW's (two week waits) with the help of Google and with the openness of other women suffering from infertility sharing their own stories and giving others hope. I have time and time again found my exact symptoms on other women's blogs and felt an overwhelming sense of calmness they provided me. I thought it was time to pay it forward and hopefully provide this same thing to other women on their own journeys.

Sunday, July 5, 2015


~7am - Woke up to a sex dream.   Maybe it's a symptom?   Maybe I'm just repressed.  Lol.  It wasn't super vivid but still hoping it's a good sign.

~ 9am - Super duper bloated.

~10am - Maybe a few pulls when moving in the uterus?    Please let this be it!

11:45am -  Thirsty?  I did take a walk this morning so I'm probably just thirsty since I haven't really had much to drink since we've been back!   Bloating mostly gone.

1:11pm - Feeling completely normal and 100% losing my mind.  I checked my past symptom lists and the only time I ever had bloating resulted in a BFN.  :(

Saturday, July 4, 2015


Today was the day I was watching for symptoms like a hawk.   Nothing.   Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaybe one little pang on the lower right side that happened a few times in the span of 10 seconds.  I should note I had weird ovarian pangs before the embryo transfer as well so who knows.   I think I had cramps (teeeeeeeeeny tiny ones) in the night between 3dp and 4dp transfer. 

Friday, July 3, 2015

2dp5dt - Mr. Moon

No symptoms yet.  My two BFPs (not the chemical) I had symptoms starting tomorrow.  So today is my LAST day of non-symptom watching!   Anyhoo.....there is totally a moon in one of my embryos!   I hope he/she is my lucky embryo!

Thursday, July 2, 2015


Nothing to report symptom wise.   I've decided to do modified bed rest this transfer instead of keeping up my 15,000 steps a day routine.  So far today (and it's already 6:30pm) I've only clocked 2,300 steps.   Still walking around the house to keep the blood flowing but not doing anything crazy today and tomorrow.  I'll start to work my way back up to 15k steps a day Saturday and be fully back by Tuesday.  The implantation window is typically 7dpo through 10dpo so tomorrow (2dp5dt) through Monday (5dp5dt).  So I want to stay pretty low key through that!  If you are a praying type, please continue to pray for us!  It means the world to us!

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

FET #5 Frozen Embryo Transfer Day!

The day's happenings:

• 9:45 Got on the road

• 11:30 Accupuncture

• 12:45 Chugging 20oz of water and popped 1.5 valium for my 1:45 transfer / 
Stopped to get lunch for Mike.

• 1:20 Arrive at Cleveland Clinic -Threw coins in the fountain to make a wish!

• 1:25 Waiting room.  Drank another 15oz (35oz, took the other 0.5 valium to total 2 valium, barely feel like I have to pee)

• 1:50 Finally in a holding room before transfer (was suppose to be at 1:45.  REALLY have to pee.  Like my FROZEN socks?  Get it?  Frozen Embryos.  I'm also flashing the # 7 since it's our seventh transfer.   Feeling like I have to pee but not that bad.  Thank you valium!

• Seventh transfer.

• Our babies.  Embryos 12 and 13.  Thawed blasts.  Let them be our take home babies or baby!  Please God!   They said my bladder was perfect (didn't comment on my uterus, I should have asked).

• 2:40 Returned to acupuncture for post transfer treatment

Our journey so far.....

Monday, June 29, 2015

FET #5, transfer #7, in less than 48 hours

Nothing crazy to post just needed a place to let out my anxiety!   So I decided to do the claritin and pepcid - what could it hurt, right?  I am doing just ONE extra medrol (instead of DAYS worth like last try in March).  Haven't decided about ibuprofen pre-transfer yet, but this article is making me sway towards doing it.  

I have acupuncture tomorrow (Tuesday) at 9:30 and then a uterine/general massage at 2:30.   I also have a pre and post transfer acupuncture on Wednesday.  I have thrown everything possible at this cylce (and a ton of $$$).  Please, if you are reading this, and are someone who prays, I beg you to take just 20 seconds right now, before you finish reading this post, to say a quick prayer for Mike and I.  It would mean the world to us!!!!

I am officially on 6 days of stay-cation starting today!  I begged Mike to help me stay as stress free as humanly possible in those days.  It will be 5dpo through 9dpo that I'm off.  PRIME PRIME PRIME implantation window so I want my core as stress free as possible!

Friday, June 26, 2015

FET Efforts

Just wanted to document things I've done this cycle (in case it works) as this will be my new go to list for future FETs (if we were ever blessed with "left over" frozen embryos after having 2 babies, of course I'd try to convince Mike to let me transfer them)....  in no particular order...
  • Weekly acupuncture
  • Weekly uterine massage with castor oil CDs 5-14
  • Fertilitea
  • Lots of water
  • TSH under 1.0
  • 20k steps a day until CD 14, then down to 15k steps a day
  • Pineapple core smoothies starting night before transfer
  • Follow clinic's medrol instructions (don't go rogue like FET #4)
  • No caffeine for many months
  • No alcohol for many months
  • No sex (sorry Mike) transfer cycle
  • Scratch cycle before (tho started AF only 3 days after, 5 days full flow after)
  • 10mg claritin/day (SP) starting 2 days before transfer
  • 20mg pepcid AM/PM (SP) starting 2 days before transfer

Things I'm still up in the air whether I should do them....
  • Lovenox starting night of transfer
  • 200 ibuprofen 90 minutes before transfer