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Look!  I have willpower!  

(unused FRER)

I was so sick and tired of seeing so many BFNs that I decided not to waste a test today. I even tested last night before I went to bed....BFN.   I am so desperate I was shining a flashlight behind the test to see any sort of shadow of a line.  Wouldn't you know it, but the back side of a FRER test has vertical lines spaced exactly how far apart the test lines are spaced on the front.  So when you shine a light through the damn thing it makes it look like a second line on the front.   Thanks creators.  Score -1 on usability and fracking with people's minds!

Anyways....  I also plan on photoshopping my beta test requisition form from Saturday's date to Friday's date.   I'll already be downtown for work Friday so it will save me from having to drive all the way downtown for what I already know is inevitable on a Saturday.   I won't have to apply Saturday morning's estrogen patches then.  And I will have one less jab in the ass of progesterone Friday night.

I would LOVE LOVE LOVE more than anything to turn this story into a miracle one.  The kind that I scoured the internet to find and out of 10 google result pages of pure blogs, I only read ONE blog of getting a BFN this late in the game and coming out with a baby.   I would love to add a second blog to that TEN PAGES of google results.  I really really really would.   So, if you're the praying type, and you're reading this...pray!