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After an 8 year battle with infertility and countless struggles, our family is finally complete. This blog chronicles the journey it took for us to start and build the family we always wanted. Background on the blog (started in 2012, just days before I found out the embryo transfer for our son worked).... I decided to start a blog after realizing I have only been able to make it through my TWW's (two week waits) with the help of Google and with the openness of other women suffering from infertility sharing their own stories and giving others hope. I have time and time again found my exact symptoms on other women's blogs and felt an overwhelming sense of calmness they provided me. I thought it was time to pay it forward and hopefully provide this same thing to other women on their own journeys.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

9w5d - Our baby passed away

My OB got me in today for a sonogram.  There was no heartbeat.  The image of our dead baby on the screen will forever be burned into my brain.  lifeless.   No heartbeat.  The heartbeat that had I known it was the last time I'd hear it I would have listened a little longer yesterday.   Our baby died on Jack's birthday.   They are in heaven now together.    D&C scheduled for tomorrow morning.   I'm numb.

We are going to have the baby sent away to be genetically tested.  I pray there WAS something wrong with him or her and God spared him/her a hard life on the outside.


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14 comments:

  1. RebeccaAugust 19, 2015 at 3:37 PM

    Oh my god. I am so, so sorry. I have a similar image burned into my brain, and it is awful. I can't believe this happened to you; I am so so sorry.

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  2. LaurenAugust 19, 2015 at 3:52 PM

    I don't even know what to say, this is heart breaking...I'm so sorry.

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  3. JulieAugust 19, 2015 at 6:22 PM

    Oh, Lauree and Mick. There are no words. Please know of our thoughts and prayers. We are so so so sorry you have to endure this. <3

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  4. AnonymousAugust 19, 2015 at 6:25 PM

    My heart breaks for you and your family. I am so very, very sorry for your loss and the pain you are feeling.

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  5. meredy338August 19, 2015 at 9:07 PM

    No,no,no!!! I am heartbroken for you! Praying now for peace and healing.

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  6. ChantalAugust 20, 2015 at 10:37 AM

    My heart is breaking for you Lauree. There are just no words except I am truly very sorry :( Same thing happened to me at 8 1/2 weeks last summer.

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  7. LauraAugust 20, 2015 at 7:30 PM

    So sorry to hear this. Sending light and peace.

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  8. ChantalAugust 21, 2015 at 6:03 AM

    You were on my mind all day yesterday Lauree. Again, I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. Praying for you and your family. Healing hugs <3

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  9. CarlaAugust 25, 2015 at 9:44 AM

    Lauree I'm so sorry. What a long and difficult journey. Praying for healing and courage

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  10. Misty DawnSeptember 4, 2015 at 12:40 PM

    So sorry for your loss, I know how hard this journey is (((HUGS)))

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  11. My (In)fertile ConfessionsSeptember 5, 2015 at 11:41 PM

    My heart breaks for you and your hubby! I'm so deeply sorry!

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  12. AnonymousSeptember 9, 2015 at 5:17 PM

    I'm so very sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking. I've been thinking of you. I hope the testing provides some answers.

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