POAS Prep

I went a little overboard and bought a fifty-pack of what are fondly referred to as "internet cheapies" in the wonderful world of infertile speak.  They all expire come 2015 so I guess I have 349 days left to use all of these!

I am still on the fence about POASing (peeing on a stick) this go around.  We have been through 3 transfers to date.  The first two I did POAS and the last one I didn't.

1. The first transfer, after POASing, it left me with a sense of grief....the "why didn't this work" grief.   But at least it prepared for me my negative beta.   
2. The second tranfer I POASed as well and I actually got a POSITIVE result.  Of course I was over the moon and called my ENTIRE family to tell them I was pregnant.  The very next day I POASed again and it was fainter than the day before.  The very next day after that I again POASed and it was clearly negative.  My beta test confirmed that I had a chemical pregnancy.  I was pregnant long enough to have the chemicals in my system but that's about it.  
3. So when the third transfer rolled around, Mike and I swore we wouldn't POAS.  And we stuck to our guns.  Then we got the call that changed our lives forever that we were pregnant.  Ironically, after that call, I POASed like a hundred times (first one / other ones) just because I wanted to see that glorius BFP (big fat positive)!!!

I probably will POAS this go around.   I don't think I have the will power NOT to!