3dp3dt - Lost embies

So I started estrogen patches today. I don't know if it was that or the news that only 2 of my remaining 7 embryos made it to freeze - and they were frozen as a day-3 9-cell and a day-3 12-cell as opposed to robust day 5 blasts...... but I just had a good silent cry at my desk. I just feel so hopeless. I know I should stay positive.... and I still am for the 2 in me but it's hard not to cry knowing 5 of my embabies died. :(

So our Final Fert Report for this cycle is:
14 eggs
11 mature (7, then 4 the next day)
9 fertilized (6, then 3 the next day)
5 arrested along the way
2 transferred on day 3 (a 7 cell and a 9 cell)
2 frozen on day 3 (a 9 cell and a 12 cell)

Anyways...today is the yellow row...

Days Past Transfer (DPT)	Embryo Development
One	The embryo continues to grow and develop, turning from a 6-8 cell embryo into a morula
Two	The cells of the morula continue to divide, developing into a blastocyst
Three	The blastocyst begins to hatch out of its shell
Four	The blastocyst continues to hatch out of its shell and begins to attach itself to the uterus
Five	The blastocyst attaches deeper into the uterine lining, beginning implantation
Six	Implantation continues
Seven	Implantation is complete, cells that will eventually become the placenta and fetus have begun to develop
Eight	Human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) starts to enter the blood stream
Nine	Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
Ten	Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
Eleven	Levels of hCG are now high enough to detect a pregnancy

Trigger update:  The trigger is still registering in my system 8 days post trigger (bottom stick).  Maybe another 2 or 3 days until it's GONE gone?

Symptoms: None so far.